Sweet little beb!
Edgar and I are really getting closer I think. He’s been cuddling me quite a bit during the night, he comes to me and curls up on my lap and we keep each other warm. He is so cute, i’m glad that he is cuddling me again (he used to as a kitten). I think i’m his favourite!!
The op shop gods were smiling down on me today
I found a super cute night gown right after talking about how i wanted a cute night gown. It’s a light pastel pink and short-ish and has ruffles on the boob part and it was only five bucks (which is cheap in terms of Australian 2nd hand stores) and i also got a nice, suuuper super soft, white, night time robe for five bucks too. Somebody invite me over for a slumber party so i can look cute as fuck.
Edgar and I are cuddling and it’s the cutest thing
We have our heads on the pillow and are facing each other and he’s purring and we are both under the blanket and are close and he’s purring
Guhh i feel so bad about myself right now. so so so so so bad. i hate myself. i feel so ugly and unworthy and dumb and pathetic and ridiculous. i feel like nobody will ever want to date me again because i’m a dumb, ugly sobby cry baby and nobody wants those and if they do, they wise up and realize how dumb it is to want someone like me.
i’m not saying this for attention and i’m not saying it so people will be all like, “oh nooo, that isn’t true.” It’s just that out of the two guys i dated, both ended up leaving me. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. I hate myself so much and I feel like i’ll die alone. My cat doesn’t love me and my dog won’t cuddle me. I just want to be held.
I have two exams today, one of them being math, my all time worst subject. Please wish me luck or pray for me or send me positive vibes.
I have not studied hahahhhhahehhhhohohah
It makes me so upset that so many beautiful, wonderful people feel bad about themselves because of societal expectations. I want to kiss their so called imperfections and let them know that it isn’t bad and that there’s nothing wrong with them. I want to kiss someone’s stretch marks, someone’s scars, their discolouration, their burn marks and so on. I just don’t want such nice, lovely, beautiful people to feel unworthy.
I just want to share my love and care for people who want it or need it because right now, I’m just lying in bed and fussing over someone who doesn’t care any more and my energy should be going to people who haven’t hurt me and who will appreciate the care i give them.